3rd Sleep study

Studies and experiences of pain relief from LSD

Hello :)

It was a busy September and the sun has been warmly easing my way into October.

I keep track of everything I do either by journaling or using financial prompts at the end of each month. How I used my money or what were the happiest moments.

Reflecting and reliving many memories made not matter how small. Just purely living life and taking time to slow down to enjoy it.

I had my third sleep study early on in September which includes 13 nodes stuck on various parts of your body, head, attached to a device that is held on by a strap under your chest and a strap above your chest. Plus air flow monitor under your nose and a pulse sensor. Sleeping with all these wires is a fine art as you try not get tangled each and any time you move around. My 1st study was done in my early twenties at the Austin Hospital after being on a waitlist for almost 3 years. Which involved lots of beeping sounds, my door open to the hallway light and every time a node dethatched a nurse would come in to reattach or to simply reposition me.

I expected to hardly sleep as long as they got 4-5 hours of recorded sleep that is enough. Sleeping with my mouth taped without my cpap for the 1st time as per my surgeon recommended to see the results of the surgery was deeply anxiety inducing. My partner checked on me regularly which was super sweet and holding my hand to comfort me.

Once I dropped off the device I had a chat with one of the sleep doctors about my recent study and how I had the surgery now that I wanted back then after my 1st sleep study. How the doctor told me with a straight face that “You don’t need surgery you just need to lose weight”. Then asked me to step on the scale because he didn’t believe the number I had wrote down which was from that morning.

Weight does fluctuate throughout the day and seeing the change in numbers can be a serious trigger. For a VERY long time it was for me. I’m so grateful I worked on having a better relationship with the scale and my body. How the numbers do not define me.

The sleep doctor said how all too common and change is slowly happening. “We know there is more to it than just excess weight”.

I won’t get the results for a while longer and if I do need another surgery which would involve removing excess tissue on my tongue I am willing to go there. Parts of me have been feeling uneasy about the fact this all should’ve been done years ago. That it’s okay to have those feelings and to grieve or feel sadness about not receiving that care much sooner.

Whatever it is in our lives there is no time like today to do something about it.

Through slowly healing various parts of my selves I hardly live in the past. I got comfortable with grief and did my best to give myself when I needed then. Allowing me to be present today, right now at this extract moment in time.

Being around children use to ALWAYS use to hurl be back to intense grief of my childhood. The intense isolation, neglect and my degrading mental state would feel suffocating to the point of limiting my interactions with any children in my life. I allowed myself as much time I needed to spend grieving for a childhood I never had.

Micro dosing with my nieces and nephews while we played or spent time together helped ease those intense feelings that prickled my skin and made me sweat. Learning how to be just a bit more comfortable with the grief and not resist every time it shows up. After a few years of doing this I am better able to handle the feelings that arise.

I can be present, enjoy every moment I spend with them no matter how brief and think how wonderful it is that I can do this. A big part of my own integration practise is acknowledging and remembering what use to be difficult or painful.

I am getting back into exploring new areas to walk wherever I am. Anytime I go somewhere I try to allocate 30 minutes to explore something in the area which usually involves parkland. Recently a study came out about LSD reshapes the brain response to pain. So I thought I’d give it a go as I’ve been getting back into more movement my right knee is still holding me back at times with the pain. I went for a walk through this forest the 1st day feeling knee pain during, all day and night till the morning. The 2nd day I had a micro-dose of LSD and no pain afterwards or during the night! Also this video from Psychedelic Support on Psychedelics for Chronic Pain & Physical Conditions with Court Wing.

I love reading and listening to all the science behind something to slowly testing it on myself and sharing it with those I know so I’ll keep you updated! I mentioned this to a friend who has been suffering with chronic hip pain due to an injury and currently awaiting surgery for a new hip. He micro-dosed with LSD and the hip pain was noticeably better.

In the garden my sweet peas are flowering so I’ve been placing them on my desk and bathroom to bring that sweet smell inside the house. Giving small bunches to my loved ones and elderly clients to hear them say how delicious they smell. I love growing flowers to not only enjoy but share them with others. My cherry tree was full of flowers bustling with bees and a small wattlebird enjoying them as well.

Since I moved from the mountains I deeply missed nature and the trees that surrounded me. So I have lined all around our small backyard with various trees and flowers. I made sure that every time I look out the window I can admire my plants easily and watch nature happen. Having bird baths easily to see from inside is such a joy. I often post nature and any experiences on my Instagram

I had a new experience of driving a different car! While on the way to work a few weeks back I was stopped in traffic waiting and was hit from behind as a young man didn’t realise the traffic wasn’t moving forward distracted by a phone call with his boss. I felt a bit shaken, I’m thankful the hit was harder and was able to take his details while remaining kind. I even wished that he still had a good day even though it started roughly for him.

The insurance all went through well having full comprehensive insurance is so important. Getting assessed that day and driving a Volkswagen x cross that glided smoothly over everything. I have never driven a car bigger than a sedan so it was a very pleasant experience that I started to enjoy. I did worry about my elderly consumers unable to get in for shopping but they managed and actually loved the car.

I got my car back 2 weeks from the accident and kept putting my wipers on instead of my indicator as I had gotten use to the Volkswagen having their indicator on the left not on the right.

Anything can be a chance to experience something new and then build upon those experiences. How do you like to feel after? Let your likes push you rather than your wants. If you’ve ever been curious about something maybe this can be a little push for you to be brave to try.

I celebrated my mother and her twin’s 70th and my middle brother’s 40th. I gave myself permission to buy new thermals from a Melbourne based brand to replace my 6 year old ones. Thermals are such a good investment for all seasons and especially for camping or those super cold days/nights. I started listening to Period Power by Maisie Hill and it has been so insightful.

I hope you have a wonderful start to October and experience some wonderful things no matter how small.

xo Lia